June

It’s June already. I’m not going to pretend I don’t know where the time has gone, I just want to not believe it’s gone. I’ve been trying to shake a funk that settled in really deep and wouldn’t let go. I know I’m not the only one that deals with mental issues (I don’t like calling them that either hah), so I wish it didn’t seem so taboo to talk about. The world, the entire world and most importantly, our personal worlds, might be better places if we felt safer talking about these sorts of things as if they were as normal as talking about the weather. Without fears of being labeled crazy, weepy/whiny, or just weird. I know I’m weird, I don’t need any other help reminding people of that. I’m all about faking it until you make it, as a pick me up to myself. But when faking it just to make others feel like you’re a-okay all of the time, I’m not so into that. So hi, I’m Melissa and for the last two/three months I’ve felt like I’ve been trudging through mud to make it through my days. I don’t want pitty or sympathy. It is what it is and I’m okay with that. However, I have been taking a multitude of vitamins since my eating habits have been poor and they have me feeling rather chatty and the mud and muck doesn’t seem so thick.

With all the serious mental talk out of the way, I have managed to get a few things done off of the “crafting to do” list I made at the beginning of the year.

A garden! I absolutely never thought I would have one, ever. Until I found myself ordering lumber, had a huge truck of soil delivered, then a few seed orders arrived. I have baby tomatoes growing, y’all! The squash plants are huge, but I’m afraid they will be lost to bugs and borers. There’s christmas lima beans growing up an arched trellis. Sunflowers, zinnas, and cosmos are about to explode their color everywhere. I have never experienced being able to walk outside and pick, then eat, fresh food from the vine. This is so very exciting for me. Let’s hope I actually grow something edible, because I simply can not wait to have my first tomato sandwich from our backyard tomatoes. I’m imagining how blissful that will be.

The girls both turned another year older back in March. It was the week of birthday cake, that’s not a complaint. One requested vanilla and the other chocolate. I’ll have to find the recipe for the vanilla again, it was sinful. Bella talked me into getting them a little ten foot pool that we set up last week when this recording breaking May heat set in. It’s perfect for them to play in and for me to sit in or float around with them. Why did it take so long for us to buy one of these things. Totally worth it, though now I want a larger one.

Instead of enjoying the pool today, I’m going to enjoy the rain that’s coming. It has been several weeks since our last rain. What have you been enjoying lately?